• Kayla is a 25 year old recent university & college graduate and now a working girl, with a love for books, is a self proclaimed coffee snob, and a slob. She works in law and is a part-time barista! This is her blog to rant, give some reviews, and hopefully connect with others!

               
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    Resolutions Update

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    As April is very close to being upon us, I wanted to reflect on how I am doing with all my resolutions I stated at the beginning of the year (in a post that got deleted when my blog got hacked..), and remind myself of these goals
    Here is a recap of what my goals were:

    • Get fit-become more active and hopefully lose 5-10lbs
    • Go back to school in 2015
    • budget more and stay on track with my spending
    • Be more organized and tidy
    • read more
    • get out of my comfort zone more
    • declutter
    • pay off credit card
    • get my nutrition in check-eat better

    1) Getting Fit
    Honestly, I feel like I’ve been doing really well since the beginning of the year with working out and not taking too many breaks in between weeks of going to the gym. Even like day’s like today, I did a quick leg workout while watching some of Charmed that I’ve been re-watching. It helps that my roommate has been going quite frequently so I’ll go with him. Usually I go 2-3 times a week and already have been noticing a difference, my arms are getting so much more toned (the fastest spot I must admit), my legs are getting definition, and my stomach doesn’t seem to bloat as much (as long as I’m drinking lots of water and eating decently). I may not have lost those 5-10 pesky pounds, yet, but I do seem to be losing some inches and gaining some muscle, which I’m getting proud of and feeling more confident.

    2)Going back to school.
    While I’m still begrudgingly waiting to hear back from law schools with their decisions, I have already accepted my Postgraduate option for Paralegal for a one year postgrad program, definitely on my way to going back to school regardless of the outcome of law school decisions or not, and I’m looking forward to it.

    3)Budget and stay on track of finances.
    In the last month I’ve made a personalized budget tracking sheet that meets my own needs more. I like to visualize and see where and when I’m exactly spending my money on to see how much of it is going to what. Although I’m finding some unexpected purchases happening as of late (like a pesky passport renewal putting me back around $150), I’m finding I’m noticing trends better with my spending habits and where I’m spending the most money, and I like it. Especially in the upcoming summer months with not as steady as an income since my job is ending, making rent less affordable at the moment.

    4)Be more organized and tidy/5)declutter and stop being a pack rat
    This I feel is just a constant struggle for me regardless. Since I’m always on a random schedule, I make more messes than I’m cleaning up as of late. I have been re-organizing and de-cluttering of sorts lately and going through some items of clothing that I know I haven’t worn in about a year to try and take them home to my mom to see if she wants them/my cousin wants them. Still hard for me, but am trying more and more lately.

    6)Read more.
    Since the start of 2015, I’ve read quite a few books. I would say upwards to about 12-15 books at the moment have been read (and possibly have not tracked that I’ve read them..). I’m trying to find more novels that make me think again, since I miss that about school, thinking about what I’m reading and reading in between the lines of what the authors are trying to convey. One author lately I want to read more of is Jodi Picoult and Gillian Flynn. I have a huge to be read list, and I’m definitely going to be doing some re-reading of novels that are sitting in my parents basement once I go home next weekend to grab some books. I’m really trying to limit my spending on novels but it’s a hobby I will gladly fork some money into since I tend to re-read a lot of my novels.

    7) Get out of my comfort zone more.
    Two things I want to accomplish/try for 2015 is definitely Zip-lining (even though the ones around here aren’t ‘the best’ ones to try, so I’ve heard) and some yoga. I’ve been saying for months how I want to try it, blah blah blah, but I haven’t had the courage to actually go on my own and try a class by myself. I’m hoping one day soon I actually go.

    8)Pay off my credit card.
    I feel as though I’m not getting very far with this one ever. I had it down to about $600 but then we bought Shania Twain tickets in June as a make up thing for me since we missed out on a previous free concert we were supposed to attend but didn’t. As well, my parents used it and then that pesky passport renewal money has to go towards that instead of paying down more of my credit card. I can only hope I can keep it down and not use it when I go back to school so I can put even tiny amounts towards paying it down in the future, but it also depends on my jobs in the upcoming months.

    9) Eat better.
    I’ve been doing just okay at eating better. I notice I eat a lot of carbs, but I’m trying to focus on eating more veggies more consistently and I find that I’m starting to bounce back from my ‘cheat’ meals a lot better. I do have my cravings but I manage them better, and don’t go on binges that last weeks at a time lately. Slowly, but surely, I am starting to grasp my eating habits more.

    How are your resolutions coming along? Do you need a reminder on what you’ve intended to accomplish for the year? Are you failing at any of  them and have given up? Let me know!

    Perceptions

    Do you ever just get taken aback by how perceptive people are of others, especially of you, and what they notice that you overlook that you do? Lately I’ve been paying close attention to some of the people around me who notice certain things about myself due to them knowing me for quite a few years, or have been working closely lately to me. Two of these people happen to be my boyfriend (who I’ve known for 5 years now) and my boss (who’s known me the same length of time as my boyfriend). I’ve gotten a few comments that have really made me take a step back and think. A few of these are “you have quite a temper”, “You have an ego,” “you’re stubborn,” and then the one completely caught me off guard was “you’re looking for ways to be mad at X“. I admit, when people are lazy, have the same responsibilities and duties as me, I get annoyed and frustrated because I feel as though I’m being depended on more to pick up another persons slack. I find ways to see how they don’t do their job, or I guess, see how much better I am at my job than X. I don’t know if I’m just trying to give myself a confidence boost by trying to make myself wonder if I’m just overly critical because maybe I feel as though I have some issues with my own work, or what it is, but I have been trying lately to not be so critical and overly detailed in combing over said person’s work.

    As the other comments go, my temper could be seen as a temper since I get passionate about things that piss me off and I want to change, or if I’ve only told people so many times to do Y but they consistently do Z. I do know it may be something I need to work on a bit better, as goes my ‘ego’ and my stubbornness. I do appreciate the people who make these little jabs at me due to how they are as people, and I know they are not trying to be critical, but show me something about myself that may be I’m not looking at. Both my boss and my boyfriend are just trying to make me a better person and better at my job, both critical things I can take with me throughout my life.

    In perspective to this, I have been noticing more little things about myself more and more lately. For example, I recently bought a new workout ‘outfit’ you could call it, and I seem to only like workout shorts with the built in underwear for that extra support while running, if you have a decent booty like mine, you know what I mean about the extra support. Or about how if I’ve made a mistake I tend to acknowledge it, tell someone, and fix it right away or attempt to state a solution to the issue right away to go about start to correct it.

    Do any of you have people who notice these things about you? Do you see them as negative critiques, or does it depend on the person who is stating this to you?

    Why I Decided to Take a Year off and Why it has been a great decision.

    So before my site lost literally everything, people (who actually read this..) noticed that I had reapplied to law school and I applied to a postgraduate diploma at colleges. I took a year off from school and have been working full time as an assistant manager at the restaurant I’ve been working at on-campus since I started university over 5 years ago. This is why I decided to take a year off and why some of it has been a great reason why.

    1.My Brain just needed a break
    I didn’t get a whole lot of, “Oh you’ll never go back” from people when I decided to take a year off and planned for it. Most people I know supported me for it and knew if I had my heart set on going back after a break, I would do it regardless. Also, after everything I’ve been through over the last 5 years, I needed a much deserved mental break. School stressed me out and I had to put in so much extra effort in terms of financial “figuring out” re: OSAP and Student Loans while also raising my overall GPA froma  5 toa 7.3 (out of 12). I wanted time to read without being tested on material or writing essays on novels.

    2. My Health.
    I’ve mentioned before that I have been recently diagnosed with a disease, but never stated what it actually was. Last year around October I started having really bad issues and finally I got referred to a gastroentologist due to my mother having Chron’s Disease. After a colonoscopy in June I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, apart of the Chron’s family (ish). Basically my intestines and colon is inflamed. It was a very fun few months prior to my diagnosis and treatment and now I’m pretty stable with all of that, but it’s something I will have to live with and take treatment for pretty much my whole life. On top of just my Colitis, I get joint pain sometimes and my immune system isn’t as revved up as most people’s, and I’ll be more susceptible to arthritis probably like my mom. Along with that, I’ve been having problems with my sinuses that have just kept developing and never getting worse the last few years and finally got a referral to an Ears, Nose, Throat specialist as well which I could potentially need surgery for and I’m still getting tests done to figure out what’s wrong. All I know for now, after an MRI, is that it’s not from my jaw, and am getting a CT scan in 3 weeks. I’ve also had to deal with a lot of finding coverage for my medication and dealing with the government and filling out forms, etc., has put me in a better place to be more independent financially and just overall.

    3. My own finances
    As mentioned briefly in this post, my finances have struggled throughout university due to numerous factors. Both my parents were laid off from work right as I was finishing highschool. Thankfully, I was able to obtain a line of credit with them for my first year of university and my second year due to my aunt co-signing. Due to my mother still not obtaining a job, my father only getting paid through WSIB which the bank did not consider income but OSAP did, I was getting kicked on every side and had to appeal to OSAP three times over the last three years of school since they wanted me to pay back $4000 which I did not have in order to obtain funding every year after my first year. It was a lot of forms and documents being sent back and forth to my school which was a nightmare. As well, my parents had to take out a lot of money and pay my rent since they were on the hook for that, something my brother will probably hold over my head for a long time due to him not being able to go to the school he wanted to and having to stay at home. Taking a year off will (hopefully) allow me to reapply to all my financial aid as an independent having no ties to my parents financially. I can also (hopefully) obtain a student loan on my own since I had a salary this past year. All of which are very important since my parents cannot help me when I go back to school.

    4. Becoming independent.
    I’ve always been pretty independent but this past year has made me so much more so. I don’t rely on my parents anymore and it is a blessing in disguise. My dad and I haven’t had a good relationship since high school due to numerous reasons and now he can barely hang things over my head like he previously used to due to helping me out with school (something he still resents me for). Being out of their house, them moving and it having little effect on me, has made it so much easier to have a better state of mind for myself in terms of my relationship with him. I don’t have to go home for the summer if I don’t want to, I can do my best to stay in my own apartment. If I want to come home it is a choice, not a necessity. Being able to work for a full time job right now also puts me in a better position for a loan come September when I go back to scool.

    5. More self awareness
    I’m becoming more aware of myself. I see things I need to work on and I genuinely am trying to better myself. I’m working on myself (ha-ha) and it is helping my relationship with my boyfriend at the same time. He also is very observant and his input is sometimes things I don’t want to hear, but need to, and I really value hearing that from someone who loves me and just wants me to be the best version on myself. I used to hold onto a lot of self-doubt in terms of my relationships with friends when things would just go south or we would drift apart, but I’m realizing it’s sometimes no one’s fault, these things happen, and it doesn’t make me a bad friend or person just because these things happen. I used to see myself as a part of those relationships that would define me, but shit happens, and that doesn’t define me.

    6. Being able to do the things I want to more.
    The last few months since my LSAT’s and applications have been sent in, I’ve been able to read so much more. I enjoy reading so much and lately it’s been an itch I can’t stop scratching unless I’m reading a current book. I’m pretty sure I’ve read almost 10 books in the last three months and I’m hoping to keep it up more.  I also feel as though if I want to stay in bed and watch tv all day on my days off, I can, and I don’t have any other responsibilities to keep up with, which feels great (at this point in my life).

     

    How do you feel about a break from school? Have you taken a break from school?